It's weird to find old journal entries where I've literally addressed myself by name, either for rebuke or some other reason. At the time it probably just served as a sort of emphasis to the point I was making, as if to say, "this is important, Adrian." (It's always condescending, too!)
But when I go back, removed from the situation of that particular moment, it's almost as if I had written it to the future me, the me who is now reading the entry. This becomes doubly true if I've perhaps forgotten the context of the entry or even its contents altogether, and it's as if past-me has set up this "name-calling" for that very reason. That wasn't the reason I originally used my own name, but it's interesting to see how context can shift based on the passage of time. Now the context becomes, "don't forget this, Adrian."
I've stumbled upon the same thing in some of my journal entries...except I WAS writing to the future me...because I can see the future...
ReplyDeleteBut seriously, I've been amazed at how the Lord has used old journal entries to remind me of a truth I had forgotten about, or show me how far I've come, or address my current situation even though it's not in the same context as the original writing. So cool and so odd!
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